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Sunday, December 17, 2006

i feel so alone

you left me here to drown

even just for awhile

hold me close

lie if you must

just hold me and love me

i'll be your everything
i am so sick of this life

i woke up to find you're a lie

i stole their smiles

i made them mine

i hide behind this mask

too scarred to face the world

i cower in the shadows i made

i am too scarred to survive in my own

the disease running through my veins

the pain of losing my sanity

you don't care

i became so sick because of you

slowly you kill me with your words

your deliberate taunts and jeers

i hear them in my sleep

your face haunts me all the time

why can't you just disappear

you're like a tattoo

i just can't remove

you get under my skin

like a disease in my blood

no matter how hard i try

you'll always be there

you're a disease..

i just wanna get rid off

but try as i might

i just can't do so...

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Wrote this some months ago. This is a poem of my true suffering...

Oh! You've got no idea!

Oh, behind this smile of mine,
Behind this love that shines,
Hides a secret story,
Invisible as you can't see.

You have got no idea,
All the pain that I am suffering,
Every effort to make me better,
Yet I wonder if I'm dying.

I live this life striving for wealth,
And yet now I live a forsaken health,
For friends sake I kept telling myself to be so strong,
But others led a better life and so I was wrong.

If only you knew,
The memories of the days that I rue,
And all the pain I'm going through,
I'm thinking how am I suppose to continue?

Pain itself is taking it slow,
What is there in me you know?
I'm suffering and can't get sleep,
And yet you are wondering what I wrote 'cause these words are deep.

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Come To Me

come to me

forget the rest of the world

together we'll fly away

far away from the world

let us break free
come to meyou need me like i need you

together we escape

the clutches of others

away from evil's lair
come to me

i sense desperation in you

join me

together we shall be

forever
come to me

forget the world

sick of hypocrisy and lies

you need solace

i'll accompany you here
come to me

i'll be with you forever

i'll never lie

i never betray

i'll belong to you

come to me...

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Thursday, December 14, 2006

We are victims of fate

we have no one to blame but ourselves

we loved and lost

We were defeated and we triumphed

we did everything by hard love

Hard love teaches us

To be strong and to persevere

To be the person we are today

Hard love is the best kind of love

I loved you eventhough it was impossible

I believed in overcoming the impossible

But i failed trying to overcome you

I knew you would never feel the same way

Still i loved you all the same

Hard love is the kind of love

Which lays the foundation in everyone

Hard love is the love which heals everyone of their pain....

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Trapped in love

I’m trapped in your love
I can’t find a way out
I’m drowning in deeper
Someone please save me

Day by day
I see your face
It torments me
Even though you’re gone
I keep on telling myself
You won’t be coming back
But your presence still lingers

Every night
I dream of you
See your anguished face
Makes me wanna reach out
But sadly, u were out of reach
I still feel the touch
Your caress

I cut myself to see how much it bleeds
But I feel no pain
The crimson stream flows
And I don’t wanna stop it
Memories swim past
Visions of us
I need you again

I’m getting delirious
I’m seeing your face again
I hear voices calling out to me
But they seem so far
It’s too late now
I’m drifting further away

Farewell mum dad and bro
I’m finally going
To a better place
Don’t cry for me
You’re fading
I’ll miss and I love you all
But I’m gone…

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Time lapse

As she falls into a deep slumber,
Her life reels in front of her
When did she stray away?
Life was so perfect before
Why did she have to spoil it all?
Memories came back to her
It was all because of him
The very person whom she surrendered her heart to
Is the very person to kill her
Promises of forever was made
But sadly,
None was fulfilled
All he did was to oppress her
Molded her for his use
She feels so used
She lies down on her bed
Waiting for the end
Death came and took her along
All that is left
Was a broken shell
Lying in a crimson pool of blood…

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Life

Life is not always sunshine and kittens
Life can be full of sorrows and sadness
Take a look around you
See what the world has to offer
Magnificent tall skyscrapers
Fully urbanized cities
In the dark alleyways
People resort to stealing to survive
Future of kids destroyed
What is happening to the world?
The world that we once knew
It was supposed to be a nice place
But it’s no longer such a beauty
It’s a cruel world out there
People suffer just to live
While the rich sit around
Amassing the sweat of common laborers
I am too a victim of the world
I am too guilty for what the world has to offer
For I am nothing more than a writer…

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Just wanna

That lovely smile
Those gorgeous eyes
Those sexy sexy lips
Makes me wanna go
Ahhh…

He’s got charm
He’s got the looks
He’s extremely cheeky
Ohh…
He’s just so sexy

He’s got the attention
He’s got the love
In his sexy eyes
His deep guttural voice
Makes me just wanna
Be his forever

I just wanna be in his arms forever
I just wanna drown in his love
I just wanna be with him
I just wanna spent my life with him
I just wanna be his…
Forever.

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Incomplete

An empty house on an empty street
An empty heart inside of me
The head wants to hate you
The heart still loves you
Letting go of the pain
Proved so hard to be done

Chorus:
Leaving you proved to be hard
Leaving you killed a part of me
Leaving you tears me apart
Leaving you was pre-destined
Leaving you left me incomplete

How am I going to live without you?
How am I going to survive each passing day?
How am I going to face you without crying?
How am I going to look into your eyes without remorse?
How am I going to live at all?

Dreams we had of the future ahead
Dreams which are now shattered
Dreams which can never be mine
Dreams which were never meant to be
Dreams of you and me

Chorus:
Leaving you proved to be hard
Leaving you killed a part of me
Leaving you tears me apart
Leaving you was pre-destined
Leaving you left me incomplete

I will never be complete
Without you by my side
I will never be the same again
Since you left out in the rain
I can never be me again
Since you left me
Coz’ all I’ll ever be is incomplete…

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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If only

If only, there is a way
To keep our love eternal
I would
If only stars were true
And dreams are too
It would be so cool
If only I could
I’ll turn back Time
Just for you
If only writings in the sand
Will not be washed away
I’ll make them last forever
If only footprints in the sand
Are not washed away by the tide
They are the witness of our love
If only you were true
I would not have been here
If only the past could be erased
I’ll salvage the bittersweet memories
Of our love…

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Gazing into the night sky

Set me thinking of a special moment

Where u held me as i cried

And whispered comforting words

Now I wonder where are those times

Special moments in our lives

Where are you now?

You used to play our song for us

Now i played it on my own

You are somewhere in your desolate world

I cried tears of pearls

Wishing for you to be by my side

But its all wasted effort

As my love was never reciprocated

Let me play our song

One final time tonite

Looking upon the sky

Wishing on a star

Thousand of miles away

Hope you can read and feel my heart

Heartbroken and sorrowful

Waiting for a nite

That will be ours forever....

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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It’s been a long way since we started
We’ve walked down this road
We’ve fought along the way
We’ve cried along the way

We’ve laughed along the way
We’ve screamed along the way
Best of all
We did everything together

It’s been a long year
Now it’s coming to an end
All those days of laughing
And fooling around

We’ve all grown up some
But some of us still remain
Despite our differences
Our friendship stayed
Through the test of time

Caring, understanding and loving
That is you my dear friend
Always listening and never judging
Forever loyal, that is you

Like precious diamonds
I’ll keep our friendship safe
As long as the fire keeps on burning
Our friendship will never die

It will never be an end
Coz there is always a new beginning
Friends are precious gems
Meant to be kept and not lose

Never will we forget
Moments that we shared
What comes tomorrow
We will never know
But our friendship
Will last for eternity…

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Freak me out.

You’re watching me
Making me uncomfortable
Tell me what it is all about
Cos you’re freaking me out
Freaking me out
Freaking me out

I’m strummin’ my guitar
And foolin around with my pals
There you go again
Staring at me
As if I am all that you can see
Stop your staring cos you're seriously
Starting to freak me out
Freaking me out
Freaking me out

I hate it when you do that
Why don’t you just come clean?
Instead of trying to be cool
And end up looking like a fool
Let me know if you really want me
Cos what you're doing
Is freaking me out
Freaking me out
Freaking me out

Stop your staring
And tell me the truth
Cos you're freaking me out
Freaking me out
Freaking me out…

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Can I hold you just for tonite?

Can I just be yours for a single nite?

Can we just forget our differences?

Can I just be in your arms for one nite?

Why did it have to end this way?

Let’s have this last dance

As a token of our first love

Ending together with our high school years.

Oh how I wish things would have been different

How I wish this nite could be forever

And remain in your arms for eternity?

We both know it’s the end

We both feel the pain of losing each other

But it hurts so bad that i feel like crying

Excruciating pain, too painful for me to bear.

We both know it’s better if we let it go.

Let us savour the last few moments of being together

Just holding tightly to each other

And be swept by waves of desire and passion

Let us be enchanted by this wonderful magical night

Our Prom Nite....

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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Breaking Away
I am breaking away from the person
I thought I knew so well
I never knew it would end this way
Me feeling bitter
And you feeling devastated
However, who am I to say
After all you have the power
Loving you taught me things
Losing you caused me pain
Tried to kill the pain
But succeeded in bringing more
How stupid and naive of me
Believing every single shit
Every single freaking piece of shit
That comes out from your mouth
Guess you are wondering
How I ended up so bitter
I am no longer the girl you think i am
I am Miss independent!
Miss Freaking Independent
HaHaHaHaHa!
So funny that I forgot to laugh
Whom am I kidding...
So just scram and never return
Coz if you do
I am seriously gonna kill you
So just move on will you
Coz I am breaking away
Breaking away from a nightmare
I build silently
So just, move away
Coz I am breaking away
Breaking away
Breaking away...

Take care of my heart
-that i've left with you

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